NOTEBOOK #13 (1892-1892)
13/1 2) Play – A character whom nothing surprises – This the curse of his life.
13/2 5) Young wife like Effie B refuses to eat ∵ [because] quarrelled with husband – eating when she thinks he is gone, &c.
13/3 10) Very few persons will pay more to get to Heaven than the smallest sum they think will let them in.
13/4 12) Good effect in a play the villain working his own discomfiture when thinks he is doing reverse.
13/5 13) Also good end same situation as began – `As you were' idea - & some character does not know what has happened in the interim. – This character might be asleep in room where excitement is going on.
13/6 15) A Husband & wife who separated from incompatibility of temper meeting at country house – affect mere polite indifference, become jealous, &c.
13/7 22)* Girl affects sleep at entrance of lover – he dare not kiss her, exit. She disappointed.
13/8 41) Pathos of a woman admitting to her son tht his father never loved her.
13/9 43)* `A Platonic Friendship'
13/10 48) P.L. ['The Painted Lady'] The hero wondering if he does love her – feels he doesn't when away from her. He has ½ a feeling of alarm about her, ½ of gratified vanity, her letters also affect him thus – time comes when her handwriting on envelopes angers him.
13/11 49) She comes after him a long distance (to continent?) just for ½ an hour, as has to return. She is afraid to go to him, she looks at him from afar (Perhaps he sees & speaks to her).
13/12 50) He knowing women from past experience of M.B & writing novels, nearly always knows precisely wht she is thinking, &c.
13/13 51) His kindliness (weak), he feels for her & keeps the thing going on ∵ doesn't want to make her miserable.
13/14 52) Emphasise has pride at first – with a suggestion of badness if it once broke out.
13/15 53) He really seducing her mind &c, she admits likes it, yet frightened she is not good – He reassures her, & feels wht he says so much tht her mind is set at rest. He ashamed of self, determined to be more careful.
13/16 54) His feeling for her always pure?
13/17 55) His feelings are thus ∵ she is so pure; he is at first annoyed that she is pure, wdn't have begun with her had he know it.
13/18 56)* Emphasise him as a Sentimentalist.
13/19 57) She alters his preconceived notions of the viciousness of the stage.
13/20 58) He will have to answer for ruining her to God. Can God forgive him?
13/21 59) Opening [?] In Thrums [?] a strange hermit old hag with face painted to look young & gaudy dress – shunned people, ran from them &c. Kindly – Hysterical – vain – put on airs tht didn't last &c. – hinted at greatness – very humble also – drinks – plenty of money but frightened of shops, &c.
13/22 60) When she goes to continent to see him she is very helpless, does not know a word of any language but her own. There she wd more easily fall a prey to some man. After doing so, her joy in life ∵ pure goes for ever, & henceforth can only find temporary happiness in wild pleasures.
13/23 62) P.L. The man has the horrid experience (in old note) of the woman coming to him, communing with him &c. in spirit – she seems there.
13/24 64) Suppose fallen girl admits `He wasn't the first'.
13/25 67)* The man reflecting in his own mind as to whether he shd marry her – pros and cons – his pleasure in mild love with many girls to which his position has at last given him an entrance, they admire his work so much – He feels absolutely tht married life wd be insupportable & putting it to himself sees that he has many good points & ought not to give his future over to misery.
13/26 68)* He writes great book or play on this love affair of his, & the papers gush over its noble sentiment, &c. discuss the hero also, who is drawn unsparingly from himself, tho' they don't know this.
13/27 69)* His previous love affair is at root of disinclination to marry, or rather makes him he can't love again, for even then he had not wanted to marry, & was relieved when she refused him, then the second time when she said she wd have him, he put her off. Emphasise this first affair, & curious feeling when finds himself calling heroine same names &c &c as called the first.
13/28 70) Only times genuine feeling of wanting to be married came to him were as when seeing [Lord?] and facing round him, persons seeing friends off at station, &c, while he alone. – Then he had feeling of compliment in need of supplement.
13/29 71) Then this mere sentiment, for he told girls of it, & they sorry for him, (a la Thompson telling about himself)
13/30 72) His shyness in company, &c. connected with force of sentiment when with right person.
13/31 73)* Had he even a genuine deep feeling tht wasn't merely sentiment? Was he capable of it?
13/32 74)* Perhaps not: though kindly in a weak way – He preferred misery to be kept out of sight.
13/33 75) He gave money (an instance of above) to those who appealed for it – none to public charities, &c – He wd give 1/- to old woman in street, &c.
13/34 76)* His hatred of all kinds of loose talk – jarred on his delicacy – also his self-consciousness made him keep his vicious thoughts to himself.
13/35 77)* Perhaps the curse of his life tht he had never `had a woman'.
13/36 78) Wd his upbringing or heredity account for his character to any extent?
13/37 79) [`Self Made Woman'] He speaks with pathos to sister of agony of taking a lady into dinner & not knowing what to say to her – he makes up remarks in advance but they are soon all fired off.
13/38 108) S.M.W. cuts his [The Bookworm's] hair (which is long in Act 1) with bowl, saying `no man such idiots as those who look like geniuses.' He always forgets to go to hairdressers. (Curtain on her beginning to cut his hair).
13/39 110) S.M.W. [Self Made Woman] ++ have come to London ∵ her brother's letters seem to speak of his marrying (She wrote `Shut yourself up & see no one till I come') She finds he says everyone thinks he shd marry. `Everyone' resolves itself into Lady So & So who has told him everyone thinks so. Lady S&S thinks S.M.W. will prove vulgar & stupid. S.M.W. is too much for Lady S&S.
13/40 111) Lady S&S wants Bookworm to marry her daughter – he prefers grandmother (dowager).
13/41 130) Bookworm has vague idea that the dowager is after him.
13/42 148) Praying for wife & children – forgetting he has none of latter.
13/43 149) S.M.W. counts lines to know how much Bkwm will get for his writing.
13/44 155) Suppose Bkwm tho' famous still lives on in parents old but & ben. (Or comes there for a time every year).
13/45 156) S.M.W. and Bkwm have rows abt his changing his coat, &c, but she always triumphs.
[Last note no. 172. Next notebook dated March 28th, 1892, therefore these notes compiled between March 14th & March 27th, 1892]
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